Well, My last chance to be pregnant before Jasper's birthday is gone. I didn't get AF yet, but I tested. I'm 11 DPO and got a BFN. I hate this. I was really hoping to be pregnant so that it would make Jasper's birthday a bit more bearable. I know the pain wouldn't be any less, but being pregnant with Jasper's sister or brother would have made it more bearable.
I can't believe Jasper's birthday is in 12 days. Where did the time go. Did I go through some time warp? It sure feels like it.
Jasper, Forever Our First-Born
- Lisa and Jonathan
- Jonathan and I where both born and raised in Chicago, Illinois. We met on May 5, 1996 and have been together since May 7, 1996 when he finally asked me out. We finally got married on Nov 11, 2003. After we got married, we did the whole not officially trying, but not preventing until Sept 2005 when we got serious about having a family. Fast forward to one year and four months, that is when we finally saw our first BFP on a pee stick. Sadly, at 5w 6d we had our first of 3 miscarriages on Feb 1, 2007, our 2nd miscarriage was on Nov 12, 2007 at 5w 1d, our 3rd miscarriage was May 3, 2008 at 4w 2d, and we just recently lost our rainbow baby Jasper on March 6, 2009 due to early onset severe Preeclampsia, HELLP, and severe IUGR.
I wish there was a way to make Jasper's birthday more bearable. I will be thinking about you! xx
ReplyDeleteI'll be thinking of you! (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteI'll be thinking of you on Jasper's birthday. You do so much to honor your little boy! Be gentle on yourself these upcoming days - you deserve it!
ReplyDeleteSometimes it sure does feel like a time warp! I can't believe a year has almost gone by. I'm sorry that you didn't get the BFP. :(
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers!
ReplyDeleteBFN's suck! I am so sorry. Thinking of you as Jasper's birthday approaches, and praying for good news on the pregnancy front soon.
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