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Monday, February 14, 2011

For the love of vampire books

People are always asking me why I am always reading about vampires so I will do my best to try and explain my new found love of vampire stories. I used to read before I got pregnant with Jasper, but definitely not like I do now. Before Jasper I would only read maybe two or three books a year and it would be all types of books. Some love stories, murder mystery, and horror type like Stephen King novels. I can remember the day it all changed for me. It was about three weeks after Jasper died. I was still very sore from the c-section so my wonderful husband insisted on putting me in a wheelchair and carting me around Wal-Mart at 3 o’clock in the morning just so that I wouldn’t have to encounter any babies or pregnant women. That one particular night Jonathan wanted to look at the magazines so I decided to look at the books and that is where I found the books that in a sense changed and possibly saved my life. Those books where the Night World Series by L.J. Smith. When I say that these books saved my life I mean it literally. During those first weeks of losing my son I had thoughts of just ending my life and somehow these books helped me. When I began reading them it was like I was transported into another world as I was reading I became those characters. When I was reading I became so engrossed in the story that I stopped thinking about the pain and the sadness of losing my son. Vampires are the furthest thing from reality that you can possibly read about and that is what I need. I needed to find a way to escape the heartache and I found it. In the past 23 months 1 week and 1 day that Jasper has been gone I have read about 100 books. Yes! You read that right it is close to 100 books in almost 24 months.