That happened to me while driving home from work today. I was in my car listening to some music and was singing a song being all goofy dancing around in my seat and the thought of Jasper laughing at his mommy for being so goofy. The tears just started and there was no way to stop them. It is so hard to imagine that I will never get to have moments like that with Jasper.
I so have those moments!!!!
ReplyDeleteI have those moments all the time. Even when I rearange my step son's room I think about how it would be arranged with two beds. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteLike you wouldn't believe. According to my therapist they are called "grief bursts", a thought, memory of the boys will come upon me and the tears flow uncontrollably.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry hon. Thinking about you and sweet Jasper! *hugs*
I have those moments too. Some days I find peace in them and some days they make me cry unctrollably. *HUGS*
ReplyDeleteI have those moments all the time! I usually cry when I have those moments, but there are times when I laugh also.
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My heart aches for you and for your arms to be filled. My baby that I lost in 2005 (Connor Matthew), I often think of what he would think of his siblings. Or "wow he would be...." It is such a gut wretching experience. I am praying for you, and will continue! May God give you peace and strength and a HEALTHY FULL TERM PREGNANCY that is complication free!!! Love and prayers!!!
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Yes, I have them too! And so often they are connected to happy emotions, like yours was! Today I burst into tears as my husband was wrestling with my boys and being silly, because their sister could never participate in it either.
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I like to think that if and when I think of my child in a moment like that, that he IS actually there and sharing in it. So perhaps Jasper is with you and laughing, that's what I like to believe anyway. It can still make you cry, but hopefully bring a smile, too, now and again.
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