The perfect infertility song

Alright! There should be absolutely in no way be a "perfect" infertility song, but this song explains exactly how I feel about this disease that plagues my life.

My answer to question #6

Thank you to everyone who has asked me a question.

Jamie from Week by Week asked me:

“Alright Lisa I have a 3-parter for you.

1) In what way do you feel you changed the most since Jasper? How do you compare to the pre-Jasper's-pregnancy Lisa?

2) If you could be any animal what would it be and why

3) finally, do you dig purses or shoes more... or :gasp: both!”

1) The way I changed to most since Jasper is that I’m more open with my grief. I concealed the grief I felt when I had the three miscarriages. I didn’t tell anybody that I even had the last two I just kept it to myself. I realize now how unbelievably unhealthy that was.
Pre-Jasper’s-pregnancy Lisa was very willing to go through anything in order to get pregnant. I did countless tests (HSG, Uterine Biopsy, blood work, HSC, ultrasounds) the list continues.
Now, I’m so afraid at the thought of losing another baby that I figure if I get pregnant then so be it. I’m still trying, but the thought of going through all those tests again just saddens me.

2) I would be an Orca. I love them. I would love to be free to swim through the oceans without a care in the world.

3) I would always pick bags over shoes in a micro-second.

My answer to question #5

Lisette from Learning To Breathe Again Asked:

“Being a loss parent is not easy, how have you and Jonathan grown from this experience?”

This is by far the hardest question I have to answer. I honestly never gave it much thought before. We have grown in many different ways. One of the biggest ways we have grown is that we are closer then we ever where before. We have learned to deal with our grief separate as well as together. I’m sure the more I think about this question the more I will be able to come up with.

My answer to question #4

Erin from FF asked me:

“Hi Lisa, I was wondering how you are doing? I lost my subscription to FF and wanted to say hello to you. Erin (otee)”

Erin I’m go glad you are stopping by my blog. I have since answered your question on FF since you reenacted your subscription to FF. I have since put my subscription on hold because it is all just becoming too much for me at this time. It just seems like every time I turn around more and more people on there are getting their BFP’s and I keep getting BFN’s. I know! It is silly or just plain stupid of me to even think something like that because it is in fact a fertility sight. It just gets even harder when I see someone that was in my June 2009 DD group already on their 2nd. Other then that I’m doing fine I’m finally down to my pregnancy weight. It only took 19 months. We are still trying for baby number 2, but I’m definitely not all gung-ho like I was before Jasper. I hope to soon get over myself and take my account off hold because even after just two days I feel like I’m missing so much.