It has been such a long time I don’t even know where to begin. I don’t know why I wait so long to update my blog. I love writing here it helps a lot with getting out everything that I keep bottled inside and that is something I tend to do very well.
I think I have been avoiding my blog because I have been so afraid to post something here in fear that I would upset someone. I know most of you can just guess what I am going to post next based on that statement. I found out on June 7th that I am expecting my rainbow baby on Feb 14, 2012. We where actually super surprised I honestly thought I would never get pregnant ever again, but after 22 months and 1 day of trying for our rainbow we finally got our BFP.
We have had our ups and downs throughout the past 27 weeks. The first trimester consisted of fear of having a miscarriage, morning sickness or in my case 24/7 nausea, and just keeping my fingers crossed that my baby was growing as he should. The second trimester which will officially be over with on Nov 21st was a bit more nerve racking. Until I could feel movement I at least had my Doppler to keep my mind at ease. On Sept 21st we found out we where going to have another boy I was so happy I cried and still cry for hours. I would have been absolutely thrilled if I was having a girl, but just being able to give this baby Jasper’s middle name as my rainbow’s middle name makes me feel like Jasper is somehow looking out for his baby brother in some cosmic way. My rainbow’s name will be Samuel Thomas Goldthorpe.
I do get a lot of moments where I am so sad that Jasper doesn’t get to share in this experience with us. I am sure he would have been so happy to be a big brother to his little brother. I would have loved to see his expression when he found out that he was going to have a little brother or being able to feel/see my belly move. I am only left to wonder with what should have been.
I can’t help but to brag that Samuel has been doing so well. At his big/gender ultrasound at 19 weeks everything looked absolutely perfect and was measuring 11 ounces which was quit a bit more than his big brother at that time. He even took a little moment to laugh at me for being so worried.
His second growth ultrasound at 24 weeks was absolutely amazing. I was so worried going to this one because I was so afraid that he wasn’t gaining any weight. With Jasper he only gained about 2 ounces every two weeks, so of course I was freaked out. Samuel not only gained weight, but he surpassed his big brother’s weight by 11 ounces by weighing in at 1 pound 8 ounces and in the 44th percentile. Jasper only weighed 13.2 ounces when I had my emergency c-section at 25 weeks so this was a huge milestone.
The next milestone came a week later when I passed 25 weeks. I don’t even know how it happened, but I scheduled an appt with the exact same doctor on the exact same day gestation (24 weeks) that I was admitted into the hospital with Jasper. My wonderful husband Jonathan just had to get a picture just like we did with Jasper that day.
This first picture is me 24 weeks pregnant with Jasper at the Dr's appt.
This second picture is me 24 weeks pregnant with Samuel at the same Dr's office.
His third growth ultrasound was just today and I am pleased to announce that he is weighing in at a wonderful 2 pounds 8 ounces and in the 68th percentile. I am also happy to report that I passed my glucose test and have absolutely no signs or Pre-eclampsia or HELLP. I am one happy mommy.